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Arrow Prayers

We are doing a preaching series on prayer during Advent at Trinity Church, and Sunday I preached on how to use prayer as a means of being prepared for Christ’s Coming.  One way of prayer that I talked about was those short one-liners that St. Augustine called Arrow Prayers.  I’ve posted some below, compiled by a friend of mine in California, Joshua Ligan.  They are taken from a variety of sources.  Hopefully they can enrich your prayer life in some way.

-Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, I give you my heart and my soul.
-God send me well to keep.
-Lord Jesus, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.
-All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.
-God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Ghost, have mercy upon us, save us now and evermore. Amen.
-O Salvation of travellers, save me, and lead me to your Kingdom.
-O Lord, save us, we are perishing.
-Holy God, Holy and Mighty, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us.
-May the love and light of God’s truth protect me.
-Be kind to me, Lord.
-Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come.
-Lord of the Powers, be with us, for in times of distress we have no other help but you. Lord of the Powers, have mercy on us.
-My Lord and my God!
-Lord, show us your love and mercy.
-Behold the servant of the Lord; be it done to me according to your word.
-Jesus, Mary, I love you, save souls.
-As you will, O Lord, let me serve only you.
-Jesus, all for you.
-Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my strength and my redeemer.
-Gone, gone, gone beyond, gone altogether beyond, O what an awakening, all hail!
-My sweetest Jesus, be not to be a Judge, but a Saviour.
-Our Lady of Mount Carmel, I place my cause in your hands.
-Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
-O Saviour of the world, who by your Cross and Precious Blood has redeemed us, save us and help us, we humbly pray, O Lord.
-God of love, turn our hearts to your ways; and give us peace.
-O Lord, arise, help us, and deliver us for your Name’s sake.
-We adore you, O Christ, and we bless you, because by your Holy Cross you have redeemed the world.
-Jesus, my God, I love you above all things.
-Sacred Heart of Jesus and Immaculate Heart of Mary, I trust in you.
-Lord, be merciful to us sinners, and save us for your mercy’s sake.
-Hail, O Cross, our only hope.
-Precious Blood of Jesus, be my salvation.
-Lord, as you will, and as you know, have mercy upon me.
-Mother of Sorrows, pray for us.
-O God, why?!
-Lord, increase my faith.
-Lord, send labourers into your harvest.
-Lord, lay not this sin to their charge.
-Lord of Pardon, have mercy on me and forgive me.
-My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Saviour.
-Pass me not, O gentle Saviour.
-Saint Michael the Archangel, guard my heart and my soul.
-Saint Benedict, in my hour of need, surround me with your presence.
-Saint Joseph, shield me.
-Saint Jude and Saint Rita, pray for me.
-Saint Peter, open for me the gate, that I may approach my God with boldness and confidence at the throne of grace.
-Holy Name of Jesus, save us.
-Holy Name of Jesus, I take refuge in you.
-Nearer my God, to you.
-O Jesus living in Mary, have mercy on us.
-O Heart of Jesus, burning with love for us, inflame our hearts with love for you.
-Teach me to do your will, for you are my God.
-Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.
-Holy Mother of God, Mary ever-virgin, intercede for us.
-My Jesus, mercy.
-I repent of my sins, because by them I have offended you.
-Come, Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful, and enkindle in them the fire of your love.
-I thirst.
-Heart of Jesus, once in agony, pity the dying.
-Merciful Jesus, grant them eternal rest.
-Mary, seat of wisdom, pray for us.
-Tender Mother of mercy, keep me safe from harm.
-Renewer of the ages, renew also me, and adorn me anew.
-Remember your mercies, Lord.
-Be gracious to me, O God.
-In you, I hope all day long.
-In your love remember me.
-Spare us, good Lord.
-May the Holy Trinity be blessed.
-To Jesus through Mary.
-May the Virgin Mother together with her loving Child bless us and keep us.
-Come, Holy Spirit, descend upon my heart.
-Come, Lord Jesus.
-Son of God, we beseech you to hear us.
-Create a clean heart in me, O God, and renew an upright spirit within me.
-Grant that I may praise you O sacred Virgin; give me strength against your enemies.
-O Name of Jesus, open up for me the great door to your treasure-house so that I may enter and praise you.
-Thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
-My Mother, my Hope.
-Praise Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
-All you holy men and women of God, intercede for us.
-Holy Trinity, one God, have mercy on us.
-Sovereign Christ Child, I cradle you in my arms; listen to the petitions I tenderly whisper to you.
-From all sin deliver me, O Lord!
-Jesus, I trust in you!
-Eternal Father, I offer you the Precious Blood of Jesus, in satisfaction for my sins, and for the wants of Holy Church.
-The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with us all evermore

St. Andrew

An Orthodox Prayer to St. Andrew- the First Called

First-Called Apostle of our God and Saviour Jesus Christ, thou high follower of the Church, most praiseworthy Andrew!  We laud and glorify thine apostolic labours, we lovingly commemorate thy blessed coming to us, we revere thine honourable sufferings which thou didst bear for Christ;  we venerate thy sacred relics, we honour thy holy memory, and firmly believe that the Lord liveth and that thy soul liveth as well, and thou remainest with him for all ages in heaven, where thou hast the same love for us as when thou, in the Holy Spirit, didst foresee our conversion to Christ; and thou dost not only love us, but prayest also for us unto God, seeing all our needs in His light.  Thus we believe and this our faith we confess, O Saint Andrew [in the church splendidly erected in thy name, and where thy relics repose]:  and believing, we ask and pray our Lord, God and Saviour Jesus Christ that by thy prayers, always heard and accepted by Him, He may grant us sinners all those things needful unto our salvation:  that as thou, according to the Lord’s voice, didst promptly leave thy nets and follow him unwaveringly, each of us might seek not that which is his own, but think  rather of the profit of his neighbor and his higher calling.

And, having thee as a representative and intercessor, we have hope in thy prayers, which avail much before our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, to Whom belongeth all glory, honour and worship, with the Father and the Holy Spirit, unto ages of ages.  Amen

Saint Andrew Christmas Novena

Hail and blessed be the hour and moment in which the Son of God was born of the most pure Virgin Mary, at midnight, in Bethlehem, in piercing cold. In that hour, vouchsafe, O my God to hear my prayer and grant my desires, through the merits of Our Saviour Jesus Christ, and of His Blessed Mother. Amen.

This novena is to be prayed 15 times each day from St. Andrew’s Day until Christmas Day- bearing in mind that God only says yes to those things which we desire which comply with the desires of God’s own heart.  The point of the novena is more about asking God to change our desires so that they will be the desires of Christ- not about asking God to grant us those things which we ask from greedy and selfish hearts.  May this Adven draw you closer to God, and may you more and more know the mind of Christ.

 

 

Abbo of Fleury’s Life of St. Edmund, King of East Anglia before 870, here comes from the Anglo-Saxon version as it appears in Sweet’s Anglo-Saxon Primer, 9th edn. (Oxford Univ Press: Oxford, 1961), pp. 81-87, trans. K. Cutler.

[Preface to the Anglo-Saxon version by Aelfric of Eynsham]

 

 

In King Aethelred’s day a certain very learned monk named Abbo came over the sea from the south, from St. Benedict’s resting-place to Archbishop Dunstan, three years before Dunstan died.  During their conversation Dunstan related the story of St. Edmund, just as Edmund’s sword-bearer related it to King Aethelstan when Dunstan was a young man and the sword-bearer was an aged man. Abbo recorded the entire story in a single book, and when the book came to us [i.e., Aelfric], we translated it into English, just as it stands now. The monk Abbo returned home to his monastery within two years, and was soon elevated to abbot of that same monastery.

[The Life]

Edmund the Blessed, King of East Anglia, was wise and worthy, and exalted among the noble servants of the almighty God. He was humble and virtuous and remained so resolute that he would not turn to shameful vices, nor would he bend his morality in any way, but was ever-mindful of the true teaching: “If you are installed as a ruler, don’t puff yourself up, but be among men just like one of them.” He was charitable to poor folks and widows, just like a father, and with benevolence he guided his people always towards righteousness, and restrained the cruel, and lived happily in the true faith.

Eventually it happened that the Danes came with a ship-army, harrying and slaying widely throughout the land, as is their custom. In the fleet were the foremost chieftans Ivar and Ubbi, united through the devil. They landed warships in Northumbria, and wasted that country and slew the people. Then Ivar went [south-]east with his ships and Halfdan remained in Northumbria gaining victory with slaughter. Ivar came rowing to East Anglia in the year in which prince Alfred–he who afterwards became the famous West Saxon king–was 21. The aforementioned Ivar suddenly invaded the country, just like a wolf, and slew the people, men and women and innocent children, and ignominiously harrassed innocent Christians. Soon afterward he sent to king Edmund a threatening message, that Edmund should submit to his alliegence, if he cared for his life. The messenger came to king Edmund and boldly announced Ivar’s message: “Ivar, our king, bold and victorious on sea and on land, has dominion over many peoples, and has now come to this country with his army to take up winter-quarters with his men. He commands that you share your hidden gold-hordes and your ancestral possessions with him straightaway, and that you become his vassal-king, if you want to stay alive, since you now don’t have the forces that you can resist him.”

Then king Edmund summoned a certain bishop with whom he was most intimate, and deliberated with him how he should answer the fierce Ivar. The bishop was afraid because of this emergency, and he feared for the king’s life, and counselled him that he thought that Edmund should submit to what Ivar asked of him. Then the king became silent, and looked at the ground, and then said to him at last : “Alas bishop, the poor people of this country are already shamefully afflicted. I would rather die fighting so that my people might continue to possess their native land.” The bishop said: “Alas beloved king, thy people lie slain. You do not have the troops that you may fight, and the pirates come and kidnap the living. Save your life by flight, or save yourself by submitting to him.” Then said king Edmund, since he was completely brave: “This I heartily wish and desire, that I not be the only surviror after my beloved thegns are slain in their beds with their children and wives by these pirates. It was never my way to flee. I would rather die for my country if I need to. Almighty God knows that I will not ever turn from worship of Him, nor from love of His truth. If I die, I live.”

After these words he turned to the messenger who Ivar had sent him, and, undaunted, said to him: “In truth you deserve to be slain now, but I will not defile my clean hands with your vile blood, because I follow Christ who so instructed us by his example; and I happily will be slain by you if God so ordain it. Go now quickly and tell your fierce lord: ‘Never in this life will Edmund submit to Ivar the heathen war-leader, unless he submit first to the belief in the Saviour Christ which exists in this country.’” Then the messenger went quickly on his way, and met along the road the cruel Ivar with all his army hastening toward Edmund, and told the impious one how he had been answered. Ivar then arrogantly ordered that the pirates should all look at once for the king who scorned his command, and sieze him immediately.

King Edmund, against whom Ivar advanced, stood inside his hall, and mindful of the Saviour, threw out his weapons. He wanted to match the example of Christ, who forbade Peter to win the cruel Jews with weapons. Lo! the impious one then bound Edmund and insulted him ignominiously, and beat him with rods, and afterwards led the devout king to a firm living tree, and tied him there with strong bonds, and beat him with whips. In between the whip lashes, Edmund called out with true belief in the Saviour Christ. Because of his belief, because he called to Christ to aid him, the heathens became furiously angry. They then shot spears at him, as if it was a game, until he was entirely covered with their missles, like the bristles of a hedgehog (just like St. Sebastian was). When Ivar the impious pirate saw that the noble king would not forsake Christ, but with resolute faith called after Him, he ordered Edmund beheaded, and the heathens did so. While Edmund still called out to Christ, the heathen dragged the holy man to his death, and with one stroke struck off his head, and his soul journeyed happily to Christ. There was a man near at hand, kept hidden by God, who heard all this, and told of it afterward, just as we have told it here.

Then the pirates returned to their ships and hid the head of the holy Edmund in the thick brambles so that it could not be buried with the rest of his body. After a time, after the pirates had departed, the local people, those who were left, came there where the remains of their lord’s body without a head was. They were very sad in heart because of his killing, and especially because they didn’t have the head for his body. Then the witness who saw the earlier events said that the pirates had the head with them, and that it seemed to him, as it was in truth, that they hid the head in the woods somewhere.

 They all went together then to the woods, looking everywhere through the bushes and brambles to see if they could find that head anywhere. It was also a great miracle that a wolf was sent, through the guidance of God, to protect that head both day and night from the other animals. The people went searching and also calling out, just as the custom is among those who often go into the wood: “Where are you now, friend?” And the head answered them: “Here, here, here,” and called out the answer to them as often as any of them called out, until they came to it as a result of the calling. There lay the grey wolf who watched over that head, and had the head clasped between his two paws. The wolf was greedy and hungry, but because of God he dared not eat the head, but protected it against animals. The people were astonished at the wolf’s guardianship and carried home with them the holy head, thanking almighty God for all His miracles. The wolf followed along with the head as if he was tame, until they came to the settlement, and then the wolf turned back to the woods.

The local people then laid the head with the holy body and buried it as best they could in such a hurry, and soon erected a marker over him. After many years, when the harrying ceased and peace was granted to the afflicted people, they joined together and erected a church worthy of the saint at the marker where he was buried, because miracles happened frequently at his grave. They planned to carry the holy body with public honor and lay it in the church. Then there was a great miracle: Edmund was as sound as when he was alive, with a clean body, and his neck, which previously was severed, was healed. It was as if a red silken thread around his neck showed men how he was slain. Also the wounds which the cruel heathens made with frequent spear-shots to his body were healed by the heavenly God. And Edmund lies thus uncorrupted down to the present day, awaiting resurrection and the eternal glory. His body, which lies undecayed, tells us that he lived without fornication in this world, and with a clean life journeyed to Christ.

A certain widow named Oswyn lived near the holy tomb, and prayed and fasted there many years. She would cut the hair of the saint each year and trim his nails, chastely, with love, and place those holy relics in the shrine on the altar. Then the local people honored the saint by believing in him, and Bishop Theodred very greatly honored him with gifts of gold and silver.

One night eight accursed thieves came to the venerable saint. They wanted to steal the treasures which men brought thither, and craftily figured out how they might enter. One struck the hasps with a hammer; one of them filed round about with a file; one also dug under the door with a spade; one of them with a ladder wanted to unlock the window; but they labored without result and fared poorly in that the saint miraculously bound them stiffly, each as he stood with his tools, so that none of them might succeed in the crime nor stir from there. They stood thusly until morning. Men were amazed at that, how the men hung, one on a ladder, one stooped to dig, and each firmly bound in his task. The thieves were then all brought to the bishop and he commanded that they hang them all on high gallows. But he was not mindful of how the merciful God commanded through his prophets the words which stand here: Eos qui ducuntur ad mortem eruere ne cesses, ‘Always redeem those who man condems to death.’ And the holy canons also forbid to the ordained, both bishops and priests, to judge concerning thieves, because it isn’t fitting for those who are chosen to the service of God to consent to any man’s death, especially if the criminals are Christians. After Bishop Theodred examined his book he repented grieviously that he had so cruelly passed judgement on those unhappy thieves, and lamented it always until the end of his life. He asked the people eagerly that they fast with him for three entire days, asking almighty God that He should have mercy upon him.

In that country was a man named Leofstan, rich in worldly things but ignorant of God. He rode to the saint with exceeding arrogance and insolently ordered that the holy saint be shown to him so that he might see whether Edmund was whole. But as soon as he saw the saint’s body he went mad, and raged cruelly, and ended wretchedly in an evil death. This is similar to that which the pious Pope Gregory related in his narrative about the holy Laurentius, who lies in Rome, i.e., that men both good and evil wanted to examine how he lay, but God restrained them in such manner that seven men died all at one time at the examination. Then others with human shortcomings stopped examining the saint.

Many miracles concerning holy Edmund we heard about in popular parlance which we will not put into writing here, but everyone knows about them. Concerning this saint it is evident, and concerning others likewise, that God almighty, who preserves saint Edmund’s body until the great day, can resurrect that man again on Judgement Day uncorrupted by the earth, even though he comes from the earth. It is appropriate that man honor the holy places of the worthy saints, those servants of God in Christ’s service, and furnish them properly, because the saint is greater than any man can conceive of. The English are not deprived of the Lord’s saints, because in England lie such holy saints as this holy king, and Cuthbert the Blessed, and St. Aethelthryth at Ely, and also her sister, all sound in body, confirming the faith. There are also many other English saints who work many miracles, as is widely known, in praise of the Almighty who they believed in. Christ announces to men through his greater saints that he who makes such miracles is almighty God, even though the poor Jews all forsook him even though they wished for him, because they are accursed. There are no miracles wrought in any of their tombs because they do not believe in the living Christ. But Christ announces to men where the true faith exists when he works such miracles widely throughout the earth. Thus to him be ever glory with his heavenly Father and the Holy Spirit, ever without end. Amen

For most of my adult life I have naively eaten meals and shopped for food with absolutley no thought about how it was grown, harvested, produced, packaged and delivered to my table.  I don’t know how I thought that it ”just appeared”.  Of course I knew better than that- but my actions didn’t convey a realsitic sense of the real cost of the food I ate. 

In recent months I have become more and more aware of the real cost of the food, clothing, electronics, and etc. that I purchase and consume.  It’s not like the idea of sweatshops and fair trade was new to me, but one day when I was shopping at the 75% off clearance rack at Macy’s, it hit me,  “there’s no way this shirt can cost $10?!”  Of course it can cost $10- at 75% off its original price mind you, because its manufacturer used slave labor to produce it.  Obviously, that creates a moral issue for me (one that I will write more about later, perhaps)- and I have started to make changes in my purchasing habits.  I buy absolutely nothing made in China, unless it can’t be obtained from any other source, and I absolutely must have the item  (like my laptop).  I try to buy fair trade clohing, which is pricier- and means I own less-  but, that’s a good thing as well.  Because I can’t afford to buy everything fair trade, I still end up buying some things from questionable sources.  But my goal is to do that less and less.

Until recently, however, I never made the connection that similar exploitation was happening in the production of food.  I never stopped to think about where the ingredients in my food come from, and how they are obtained.  Until I started researching the answers to those questions, I had no conscious idea that children were forced by many food producers to harvest crops and that farmers in developping countries were being cheated and underpaid for their crops.  Even in the United States there are human rights abuses in the food production industry.  In recent years several cases of slavery have been reported in Florida among migrant workers tomato and orange pickers  (http://www.ciw-online.org/slavery.html).  McDonald’s, Yum! (the company that owns Taco Bell among other fast-food chains), Burger King, Subway, Whole Foods, and  Bon Apetit have all signed agreements with the Campaign for Fair Food, by which they promise to commit to socially responsible, ethical and fair buying practices.  Walmart, Kroger, Publix, Giant, Chipotle, Aramark, and Sudexo have all refused to sign agreements. 

Beginning today, and lasting through Nov. 25th, you can help by boycotting grocery stored and restaurants who refuse to take a stand for the human rights of farmers in the US.  Go here  http://www.interfaithact.org/supermarkets  or http://www.allianceforfairfood.org/2009supermarket.html to see how you can help.

I love those spring rains, which offer me a quiet afternoon to lie in the bed and nap, or to laze around on the sofa and read a good book or listen to some soothing bossa nova- but the icy rains of Ida are not as pleasant.  I write in the warm heat of the Canterbury House, drying off after being drenced by sheets of rain that the wind whipped right through me as I pumped gas in my car just a few moments ago.  A pot of coffee and warm milk have already begun to remove the chill from my bones, and I am already dreading getting back out in the storm to go home in a few hours. 

At least I can go home.  And here I sit, protected from the winds and rain and soothed by my favorite java with pumkin spiced cream.  So many, too many have no protection from Ida’s furies.  O, sure at this moment they sit in the library or the Christian Science Reading Room, or perhaps they are wandering around the mall- but tonight, there will be nowhere for them to go.  There is a night shelter here in town, but it won’t open until the temperature falls to 32 degrees… tonight it will be 44 degrees- accompanied by the biting winds and rains of Ida- and those who have no home, no place to lay there head, will have no where to go to be safe and warm.

This morning an elderly couple came by the church aksing for help.  They were both on canes and the man said his wife had just been released from the hospital.  They needed to be put up for a few days so they wouldn’t have to sleep in the rain.  He smelled of alcohol, and he mentioned that he had been banned from the homeless shelter.  I explained that my discretionary fund was low and that I nor the church had reosurces to house people, even for a few nights.  All I could do was give some groceries (which is not any help for a family without a house and a means of cooking) and make arrangements for them to talk with someone at the ecumenical ministry to the homeless.  Turns out he had laready gone there, and had been turned away.  At the end, I too turned them away- into the cold rain. 

I’ve been a priest long enough to know that people make up all kinds of stories to get money:  I don’t blame them; many of them are in desparate situations.  Even when they are trying to con me out of money so thay can buy alcohol and cigarettes, I know that for some of them, those cheap comforts are the only comforts they have.  And in all honesty, there was no way I could help them…. or was there? 

Why do I feel like I have just turned away the Mother of God seeking a warm place to give birth to Son of God? 

No one deserves to sleep in the rain.

 

 

All Souls Day

These last few days have been an emotional and spiritual roller coaster.  All Hallow’s Eve was filled with laughter and fun as my son and I enjoyed the local festivities sponsored by the mall in lieu of trick-or-treating.  I think this might be his last year of actually having fun dressing in a costume (and next year will only endure the ritual as ticket to getting treats)  :)   But this year was a joy. 

Yesterday, I baptized a new member of Christ’s Body- a 20-something new to church (which I always love to see), chanted the Mozarabic Preface for Prayer D, and allowed my heart to fill with joy and exctasy in Christ and His Saints.  Today, I have listened to both Faure’s and Mozart’s Requiems, and pieces of Rutter’s and have mostly cried and prayed for my grandparents and son, who died in infancy.  I do not believe the “Popish doctrine of Purgatory”, but I do believe in heavenly purgation- and I find more and more comfort in praying for the continued sanctification of  my loved ones and reminding God of his mercies and promises.

I am also comforted by the final memories of my son, Isaac.  One of the last moments we shared together was Holy Communion.  I had just celebrated the Great Easter Vigil and communicated him with the Precious Body and Blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ.  After Mass, I kissed him and his brother goodnight, and sent them home with their mother so that I could remain behind and prepare for the Easter Mass.  I never dreamed that God would call him to Paradise within the hour. 

This All Souls Day brings many tears and groanings… I pray for him- but mostly ask him to pray for me, since I firmly believe that he is with the saints in light.  I often imagine him on Our Lady’s knee, being caressed and lulled to sweet rest by her lullabies.  My oldest son, who was present when Isaac died, said that he saw a beautiful Lady come and pick his brother up and carry him away to heaven.  I choose to believe him:  I choose to believe he saw Our Lady herself, coming to rescue such a precious one from the terrors of death, and carrying him in her own arms to Paradise. 

Rest in peace, sweet Isaac, and pray for me a sinner

 
 

Eternal rest give unto them O Lord: and let perpetual light shine unto them.

  V: From the gate of hell.
  R: Deliver their souls O Lord.
  V: Let them rest in peace.
  R: Amen.
  V: O Lord hear my prayer.
  R: And let my cry come unto thee.
  Prayer:
O God, which among the Apostolic priests hast made thy servants to have power by pontifical or priestly dignity: Grant we beseech thee: that they may also be joined unto their perpetual society.
O God the giver of pardon, and the lover of human salvation, we beseech thy clemency: that thou grant the brethren of our congregation, kinsfolk, and benefactors, which are departed out of this world, blessed Mary ever virgin making intercession with all the saints, to come to the fellowship of eternal blessedness.
O God the creator, and redeemer of all the faithful, give unto the souls of thy servants men, and women remission of all their sins: that through Godly supplications they may obtain the pardon which they have always wished for. Who livest and reignest world without end.
  R: Amen.
  V: Eternal rest give unto them O Lord.
  R: And let perpetual light shine unto them.
  V: Let them rest in peace.
  R: Amen.

 

The Jesus Prayer, or the Prayer of the heart, comes to us from Eastern Christianity.  There are several variations of it, but its most basic form is:  Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.  The prayer can be traced to the fifth century monastic communities in the Egyptian desert, who repeated this prayer over and over again in order to bring inner stillness and purification from sin.  But, it is rooted in Scriptures like the plea of blind Bartimeaus, “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of David, have mercy on me” (Mark 10:47) and the humble prayer of the sinner in Luke’s Gospel who cries out to God for mercy (Luke 18:13).  Abba Macarius of Egypt said that it is needless to waste our time of prayer with words. It is enough to hold out our hands and say, “Lord, according to your desire and your wisdom, have mercy.”  During times when we are overwhelmed with the cares of the world, he taught that we simply pray “Lord, save me!” or, “Lord.“  That is enough, because God knows what is best for us, and will have mercy upon us.

Volumes have been written on this prayer since the fifth century when St. Diadochos wrote about it in the first volume of the Philokalia- a greek compendium of texts on the spiritual life, written to instruct monks on the contemplative life.  So, I hesitate to add my lowly thoughts to this mystical prayer:  but for the next few weeks, I will be posting meditations and reflections on the Jesus Prayer, partly because it has been such an important part of my own prayer life.  It contradicts the wisdom of Abba Macarius, perhaps, by wasting time exegeting the text of this prayer; but maybe, by God’s grace, these word will benefit us in some way as we progress towards sanctification. 

As I said before there are several variations of the Jesus Prayer, and the one I will be using for this meditation series is the one I first learned- and I don’t know its origin- although I suspect it is Western:  Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God and Son of Mary, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Jesus is Lord:  Meditation One on the Jesus Prayer

One of the earliest creedal statements of Christianity is ‘Jesus is Lord’.  By the time of St. Paul (c.60), whose epistles are the earliest Christian texts still extant, this creed was already firmly formulated as a statement of Christian witness and belief.  It grew out of the kerygmatic proclamation that Jesus was crucified, died, was buried and rose again- and bore witness to the saving act of God in which Jesus is exalted by virtue of the Resurrection, and having been seated at God’s right hand in Glory, is Sovereign Lord over all creation.  Implicit in the confession that ‘Jesus is Lord’ is the belief that Jesus is God- that he is more than a good teacher or powerful healer; that he is in fact uncreated, pre-existent with God from eternal past, and co-existent with the God revealed and known in Scripture (in this case the Hebrew Scriptures through which God was revealed to the Hebrew people).  Of course it took a few centuries for the Church to figure out exactly how it is that Jesus is both God and human, but from the beginning, as the letters of Paul and other books in the New Testament attest, Christians acknowledged and confessed a belief in the divinity of  Jesus- which of course was a radical confession for a group of religious people still connected to Judaism, and its claim that God is One.  To confess that Jesus is Lord was to confess that in Jesus Christ the fulfillment of the Law and Prophets had been realized, and that the ‘latter-days’ that had been announced by the Prophets had come in which God would restore all things and make them new. 

The confession that ‘Jesus is Lord’, however,  was more than a theological statement for the earliest Christians.  It was also a political statement. By the time of St. Paul, the cult of Caesar was the fastest growing religion in the Mediterranean world.  Although Julius Caesar had allowed himself to be declared to be the “unconquered god”, many Roman Emperors referred to themselves as ’sons of god”- sons of the deified emperors who had preceded them.  As the empire grew, the Imperial cult grew as well, as people began to honor the emperor as the sovereign Ruler of the World, the one who brought peace and prosperity.  Loyalty to the Empire was inextricably bound to loyalty to Ceasar and to the cultic life of the Empire, by which sacrifices and offerings were made to the gods for the welfare of the State.  Refusal to participate in the cultic life of the Empire was treasonous- and led to death.  So, to confess that ‘Jesus is Lord’- and not merely that Jesus is a lord, countered the claims of the Empire.  If Jesus is Lord, then Caesar is not;  if Jesus is Sovereign over the Universe, then Caesar is not.  If by the life, death, resurrection and ascension of Jesus, God is acting to bring salvation to the world, then sacrifices to false gods are useless. 

Consequently, to confess Jesus as Lord is to challenge the power and authority of the world.  It is a subversive act which seeks to overthrow the tyranny of the world and all of the forces of evil which pull the creatures of God away from God. To confess Jesus is Lord is to participate in a revolution which witnesses (quite literally so for the martyrs) to the Empire of God’s Reign, first announced by Jesus and inaugurated by his Resurrection.  It is to give one’s full allegiance and loyalty to Jesus, as the Ruler of all things, the Lord of Lords and King of Kings, the Prince of Peace and the Author of Salvation.  Allegiance to any other power or authority makes room for the tyranny of sin and death to advance its claims for power in the world. 

Obviously in 21st century America we do not compete with cults to Zeus and Apollo, and we hardly view our political leaders as divine (although some of the messianic metaphors and iconography used for President Obama are troubling).  Nonetheless, we are confronted on a daily basis to evil powers which “rebel against God”, which “corrupt and destroy the creatures of God”, and which seek to draw us from the love of God.  To confess Jesus is Lord is to confess that power, wealth, and greed is not.  To confess Jesus is Lord is to confess that the values of this world which oppress the poor, marginalize the weak, and seduce us to create comfortable lives which are shielded from the realities of hunger, poverty and death in the world must be challenged and overthrown so that God’s Reign of Peace and Justice may hold sway.

SS. Simon and Jude

Today the Western Church celebrates the Feast of SS. Simon and Jude.  Little is known about either of these apostles, and the stories that have been passed down to us vary between the Eastern and Western Churches.  Normally, I would be interested in sharing the myths that surround the saints- especially when one is the brother of our Lord.  But today I am more interested in the unknown- in the power of God that shines through an apostle whom the church chose to forget about until times of great distress and suffering when we are encouraged to cry to him for assistance.  A facebook friend quipped that Jude must get tired of us reminding him that difficult situations are not impossible.  Of course he has it backwards;  he is the one who is always reminding us- not only that nothing is impossible with God- but that even the intercessions of the weak, the vulnerable, the outcasts, and the forgotten avail much, because God also is to be found in them- perhaps God is even especially found in them. 

SS. Simon and Jude, pray for us.

 

 

Proper 25 B

10/25/2009

 

There is an exhibit that has been making its way through major cities for quite a few years now called Dialogue in the Dark- perhaps you’ve heard about it or even had an opportunity to participate in one of the exhibitions. If not, let me tell you a little bit about it.

 As the name suggests, the exhibit takes place in total darkness where blind guides lead small groups of sighted people through ordinary situations creating a role reversal and paradigm shift that empowers the blind to confidently lead people through a world devoid of images, and takes sighted people out of their familiar comfort zones and challenges them to experience familiar environments in a new way. At first sighted people are confronted with the challenges that the blind often face in their daily lives, but as the experience progresses, they are introduced to a new world that is independent of imagery, but still richly sensory. In the end visitors leave the exhibit with greater empathy for the blind, gratitude for their own sight, and respect for those who “see the world differently”. They leave having experienced the world through the perspective of the blind and having recognized that the world of the blind is not “poorer”- only different.

 This exhibition grew out of conversations between a German journalist and his co-worker who became blind after an automobile accident. As they talked, the sighted journalist became increasingly aware of the social prejudices that the blind, deaf and other differently-abled people are forced to cope with on a daily basis. He recognized that these prejudices, like all of our prejudices against those who are different from us, are rooted in ignorance and fear. So, he confronted his own fears and ignorance and intentionally began to meet blind people, so that he could get to know them as individuals and also learn more about their perceptions of the world. He discovered that that the more he opened himself up to the blind, the more the way he perceived the world changed- and it changed in rewarding and positive ways. Dialogue in the dark grew out of these experiences and a desire to connect sighted people with blind people in order to inculcate a tolerance for Otherness and to promote the inclusion of marginalized people in society.

 This mission of inclusion is also the theme of our Gospel reading for today. As Jesus and his disciples were leaving Jericho, they passed by Bartimaeus, a blind man who was sitting on the roadside begging for alms. As the crowd that was following Jesus passed him by, Bartimaeus learned that the crowd had gathered because Jesus was there, and he began to shout out, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me.” Of course as he shouted he started to make a scene, and all of the pious, righteous church-goers who were following Jesus began to scold the blind man and tried to silence him- but he shouted even louder, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me.”

 Now it’s worth pausing to note a few points here: First, the blind were treated with contempt and disrespect because it was commonly believed that their blindness was God’s punishment for some sin that they or perhaps their parents had committed. So, the people in the crowd would have had no pity or compassion for Bartimaeus as he cried out for help. It’s possible that Bartimaeus may have felt that indeed he had been punished, which motivated him to cry out to Jesus for help. What is interesting is that by his own words, we see that the one who we think is blind actually perceives reality with great clarity; while the sighted religious leaders who are still plotting against Jesus, and the crowds who are just following along to see what miracle Jesus will perform next, and even the disciples who just never seem to get it remain blinded to the reality of who Jesus really is.

 “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me.” Bartimaeus did not simply shout out a request to receive his sight- His prayer was one that, according to rabbinic tradition in the time of Jesus, had been used as an address to King Solomon, who was not only known by the Jews of Jesus’ day as the Son of David par excellence, but who was also known a renowned healer. Bartimeaus is recognizing that as great as Solomon was, the true heir to the Davidic throne, the true Son of David is Jesus- and if anyone can restore his sight, Jesus can. Somehow, this blind beggar was able to see what no one else could see about Jesus- and through his lips we are given a revelation about who Jesus really is- the promised one who has come into the world to heal the sick, liberate the captive, clothe the naked, and feed the hungry- the one through whom God would show mercy to us and redeem us from our sins. “Have mercy on me”, Bartimaeus asks- believing that Jesus is now the means through which God continues to be merciful to those who are in need of God’s compassion and grace- Which is good news for us, because too often we are blind to those things which God would call us to pay attention to- sometimes we are blind to the needs of others; sometimes we are blind to those sins and weaknesses in our own-selves that are holding us back from deeper relationships with God and our neighbor. Sometimes we are blind to the vision that the Holy Spirit is revealing to the church- and we can’t see beyond our own ambitions and dreams in order to see God’s dream for us. But God is merciful- Christ’s offering of self-giving love on the cross has opened God’s streams of mercy for all people at all times and places- and God understands our weaknesses, and is ready to restore our sight so that we can see as God sees- and of course we won’t always get it right- as we discern to see as God sees our vision will from time to time be clouded by our own desires and worries and concerns that dim our vision of God. So it is important for us to be vigilant in maintaining our focus on Jesus and paying attention to the blinders that are slowly obscuring our vision.

 How do we do that? Well, by doing what you’re doing right now is a good start: Coming to church regularly and encountering Christ who is present among us in the gathered Body of Christ, in the proclaimed Word of God and in the Sacrament of Holy Communion keeps us focused on Christ and soaks our hearts with God’s grace and mercy which continues to transform our thoughts and vision throughout the week so that we get better at loving God and our neighbor, and so that we more readily recognize Christ in the faces of those whom we encounter in our daily lives.

 We also focus our eyes on Jesus by living lives of servant-hood which reach out in love to the poor, the sick, the oppressed, the lonely and those who are in need of compassion and mercy- lives which reach out to the marginalized and draw them into the community- and the more we live lives of service, the more we love the unloveable, the more we are merciful to unmerciful, the more we embrace the poverty of the poor and offer them dignity and respect, the easier it becomes for us to recognize Jesus in all of his distressing disguises- and the easier it becomes to recognize Christ, the easier it becomes to follow where he leads.

 There is one more spiritual discipline that you might consider taking on as a means of maintaining a focus on Christ: you might consider praying the Jesus Prayer and making it a mantra that you pray from time to time throughout your day. The Jesus Prayer comes to us from the Eastern Church and based on the prayer of Bartimeaus: “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner.” What’s great about this prayer is that it’s a memorable prayer that anyone can pray at anytime- especially when you don’t know how to pray or you’re too frazzled or overwhelmed by a crisis to pull your thoughts together to say a prayer. “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner.”

I was visiting with a parishioner the other day and she was telling me about how she had fallen a few weeks ago in the middle of the night and couldn’t move to get the phone to call for help- and all she knew to do was to pray the Jesus Prayer- “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner”- until help could arrive. She found great comfort through that prayer in the midst of a very terrifying situation- and soon help did arrive in what appears to be a truly miraculous way.

 I commend it to you during your fearful moments, or during quiet moments that you can steal from your daily routine as you stand in the check-out line at the grocery store, or sit in the commuter train on your way to work, or as you lie in bed at night in those moments before you fall asleep. Try practicing the Jesus Prayer, or some variant of it such as Lord have mercy, O God make speed to save me, and see over time how God begins to change you and enables you to more clearly see those places in your life where God is to be found, and where God is leading you to share God’s peace and love with others. You will see how God is transforming your vision to see those in the margins who are persistent in their faith; who refuse to be defined by their unfortunate plight and by their disabilities, who refuse to give in to the expectations of those who belong to the “in crowd” and who can offer us a perspective and a way of seeing that can enrich our vision of who Jesus is and who we are, and who we are called to be.

 Last week we heard the story of 2 brothers- two apostles in fact, James and John who wanted power and prestige- who wanted to be seen by others as important. In contrast to them, today we see a man who only wants to the see the world around him- and who after being healed from his blindness, decided to follow Jesus in order to see this new world through his point of view. And here we are, and as we come to the altar rail, we encounter Jesus and he asks the same question to us that he asked James and John and Bartimaeus- “What do you want me to do for you?”

 What is it that we desire the most? What is it that we want from Jesus?

Prestige? Honor? Wealth? Do you want to be admired and seen by others? Or do you want to see through God’s eyes- do you want to see all of the beauty and wonder and amazement that lies in every moment of your life and that is so easily missed by distractions and “busy-ness” and ambition and greed… do you want to be able to see God even in the chaos and pain that comes your way? Ask to see- pray for the insight that Christ’s dream for us brings- Pray for the vision to see God’s kingdom around you in unexpected places, pray for the insight and the wisdom to proclaim the kingdom you see to your family and your friends and co- workers- and to the poor and marginalized: Pray to see the holiness that God has given you- pray to see the sainthood in those around you- and then go- follow Jesus and live your life as God sees you living it- as a disciple of love and mercy and as a healer opening the eyes of the blind, so that they too can see the world as God sees.

 

 

 

 

Change is not something with which I am able to cope with too easily, especially when I am not in control of the change (which is a topic for a different musing).  I suppose some like surprise and live their lives with a  carefree, come-what-may attitude.  But I like predictibility.  I enjoy the constant, repeated rythm of life from day to day and season to season.  I like stability.  I like waking up in the morning and beginning my day the same way day after day.  I like knowing that I will have to call my son three times before he will finally get out of bed and head for the shower and that every time we pass by the consumerist-hell “Central Park” shopping center here in Fredericksburg, he is going to beg to go to Game Stop. 

So, perhaps it is more difficult for me to deal with life changes that upset the rhythm of life that gives me so much comfort.  At the moment this change is the result in a change in employment.  I am at the end of my contract at the parish where I am serving as an assistant, and things have been going well.  I think deep down I hoped my contract would be extended.  Alas, because of budgetary issues it can not be.  It’s simply cheaper for the parish to hire a curate fresh out of seminary.  Fair enough. 

So, I’ve been searching for a new place of ministry.  What frustrates me is that every door seems to close.  Yes, I know trust God, wait for the place that I am called and the place where my gifts fit their needs and where we can work together to bear witness to God’s emerging kingdom.  Yes, i know that- and I try to trust and be patient.  But with every rejection letter and phone call, I just look at the calendar and frantically think “June 1st is not so far away… what am I going to do if I don’t get a call?”

This week has been particularly frustrating because two promising doors have been shut.  One parish was so perfect.  It really was a great fit theologically, liturgically, and socially.  The only problem?  It required me to work every Saturday and Sunday night- and with my current custosy agreement, those are the times I have with my son.  So, if I pursued a call there, I would never have quality time with my son.  I pondered and prayed and tried to find a way to make it work.  In the end, I knew I couldn’t go there.  As wonderful as this place is- it just wasn’t the place God was calling me to be.

This morning a second door shut.  I received a phone call from a very nervous chair of a search committee that was planning to come hear me preach on Sunday.  Our phone interview had been awkward, because they had voiced concerns that because I had a son, I might not be willing to give 100% to the church.  I found the conversation offensive- but when they called me asking to contimue the dialogue, I decided it would be good to do so, and perhaps seek clarity on their comments.  Well, this morning I received plenty of clarity.  They were too concerned about my relationship with my son and wanted to remove me from the list of candidates (of course he told me they’ve removed everyone from the list ans are now with no names).  I agree with the search chair that this was not a good fit- and they need a single unmarried priest.  Fair enough- it’s good to know these things early.

Still, I am wondering if I will find the place that God is calling me to serve.  It’s never been this difficult before, and I am wondering what God is trying to say to me?  What transformation needs to happen in me?  I know I need to give you some control and trust the Holy Spirit a but more- and I know that I have to believe that the right place where my gifts cab be best used is waiting around the bend….

But getting there is not easy or enjoyable for me.  Ny life is too shaken and too fluid right now.  I don’t like walking the road to “go where I will send you” like Abraham did….. 

At least God is with me, the Blessed Virgin is praying for me as are many other dear friends.  I need to find a way to live in this moment- in NOW- and not worry about tomorrow.  After all, Jesus was right:  there is no need to worry about tomorrow- today has enough trouble of its own.

Pray for me.

Nada te turbe;
nada te espante;
todo se pasa;
Dios no se muda,
la paciencia
todo lo alcanza.
Quien a Dios tiene,
nada le falta.
Solo Dios basta.

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